I'm Feeling You

It’s so hard to look for expired films nowadays . .

Today, I just realised that i’m in a school full with ‘stupendos’ people . i dunno why i just said that but surely it felt great . anyway, have u ever had the feeling like when you don’t get something that you want dearly, feels like a china just fell of the stairs just rolling, rollling and rolling and … bam ! it finally fell down and waddaya know, it broke . man, that’s how i’ve been feeling these past few days . i wanted to transfer to another school but as usual .. this is the part where MOM comes in . i was like dafuq . i mean, these past few days, my friend had shown this one particular post that had link about my mjsc ranking of all the mjsc . mjsc kuala lipis in particular . get this, there are 42 mjsc in malaysia and ours were on the 37th . i felt so stupid . like a troll really . even trolls can do better . back to reality, i felt like wattahell happened here ? you know since the guys(our friends) who got 8a’s for their pmr that went to pkp mjsc, literally for clever students . dafuq does mara has to do that ? semi-racist ? bitch . and this is where i get the feeling that I SHOULD transfer to another mjsc . one in my opinion . PONTIAN ! god, i know you’re there and i beg you please hear me out, that just for once .. let there be a change in my life . since i tried to do a few changes on my own but didn’t succeed so i’m hoping that i’m making changes involving around me . changes are not all good but it’s changes that can make us realize on what we are missing out in this world . i dunno . maybe there’s a reason why i have to stay there at kuala lipis but i still don’t get it . why does it have to be soooooooooo dammmnnn hard . i mean c’mon mom, for once, let me decide the things that i wanna do . i’m not kid a anymore . well, this is regular teen saying but i don’t give a fuck . maybe it’s because i’ve been cursing alot these past few days … month ? … years ? i dunno  but whatever it is i sure hope god answers my prayer so that i can make the decision that i really want and won’t regret afterwards . mann, it’s been hard since the holiday started, i’m not gonna lie especially you’re the person that’s going to take an A’level right after the holidays ended . that’s why i want the changes(the transfer) so bad ‘cos it involves my future . lol . mom, please go easy on me tomorrow . or at least smile .